Stepping into a new life

It has been almost 3 weeks since I started my new life in University. It certainly has been a time of great change and has left my mind overwhelmed as it tries to consolidate and make sense of all the new, alien experiences. All the new work has left me little time to delve deeply into the philosophies of life and thus you will have probably noticed that its been a while since I wrote my last blog.

Nevertheless, I'm back with yet another post to add to my growing blog tally, however, this time my thoughts are less clearly defined, which means I cannot end this post with a new moral or 'lesson learnt', instead in this post I can only convey my own confused state of mind and try to diagnose my psychological state. Perhaps this exercise may even liberate my mind from this state ! It is quite interesting that sometimes diagnosis of a problem is the cure.

In my last post (about a month ago), I mentioned that the landscape of my life was about to change drastically. Well my life has changed and right now I find myself turning my head in confusion as I try to come to grips with this new reality and make sense of how it relates to my past, and where it will lead me. 

It's hard to make sense of the last couple of weeks. Everything that I would take for granted over the last 18 years has suddenly disappeared ; no parents, no one to call me for lunch, no structured compulsory system like school, basically no one to regulate and keep my life on track. It's like being thrown into the wilderness with nothing to protect you from the inherent dangers of the jungle, however, on the other hand, there is nothing to stop you either, from exploring the depths of this jungle in an unregulated fashion and discovering a paradise you never knew existed. Such is the two-faced nature of my life ;  presenting new dangers, but also offering new opportunities. 

But for a moment lets move away from the pros and cons of this new life and tackle the significance of this step to my overall development. This is it ! This is the ' real thing'. I can't help but think that all my last 18 years of life were preparing me for this moment. The moment when I would be released into the 'real world', to fulfill my dreams. The time has come for me to do something extraordinary. But where do I start ? How do I start ? Will it really be as extraordinary as I imagined ? 

Because it has to begin, and it has to begin now !